Carol Mason

we miss u

hiya my mam, its been hard last few weeks mam, clares been really bad coz we found out she had a tumour in her head on wed then she was in getting operation on friday,iv been dead scared and then been even worse not havin u there to talk to or anything and i just wish u were here cause i still need you! shes ok after operation but we find out soon if its cancerous or not then she might have to get radiotherapy, i wish u were here mam! i cant deal with all this again if its cancer. i just wish i had u here to talk too, love u so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Stacey (Daughter) November 3, 2008

had a really bad day today, been keep imagining back to the funeral and kept getting choked up on the phones at work, everythings been going good lately then sum1 has tried to ruin it again!! we are strong though, u brought us up well, and ino u are there through everything! we raised just over 1400 for the marie curie on friday for ur remembrance doo, it was a great night and im sure you would have loved it! i miss u so much though my mam, i need you to be there, i love u sooo much! love you always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Stacey (Daughter) October 16, 2008

1 year today!

i year you've been gone carol... its still hard to believe! you're still such a miss... keep dreaming about you.. sometimes you're here and it had never happened and sometimes you're gone but you're talking to me saying you're ok! me and glen really miss you.. we've been talking about you today.. he plays records alot that remind him of you. you were such a great aunty to him ..his favourite aunty and he never made a secret of it..so many songs and things come up every day that remind me of you.. i cant wish you back ..i've tried so often already..i can only live with the memories of what an amazing sister and person you were... love and miss you so much carol my big sis xxxxxxxx

Linda Hargreaves (Sister) October 9, 2008

hiya mam, it'l be ur birthday soon, im really scared i dont know why im just getting really nervous and anxious about it, i miss u mam more than eva, everything is soo hard, love u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Stacey (Daughter) August 25, 2008

hiya mam. was sarahs birthday today, had a gud laf, me and nana had a bit of a cry about u, i dont mean to cry i just cant bear the feeling of u not being here, we all miss u soo bad though mam! i really really wish u were here, every1 keeps saying uv just got to learn how to cope with it and i know that i do i just dont understand y, its not fair that other people have got their family and we havent, i miss u soo badly love u loads my mam xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Stacey (Daughter) August 22, 2008

My dear sister Carol

Months have passed since you have climbed the steps to heaven. At first I could just pretend that you were away on holiday etc but as the weeks turn in to months and I haven’t seen or heard from you, I've had to sadly accept that the heavens have stolen and taken from me my beautiful very much loved sister and it hurts so bad.

How I wish you were still here to shout at me and boss me about and how much I wish I could have 10,000 painful body-crushing cuddles from you. I've not been able to read or write on this site up until now; I guess I just couldn't accept that you were gone. There’s never a truer saying than 'God only takes the best' as he has taken from me the greatest sister anybody could ever wish for.

Behind my mask of smiles and inability to talk about you, I love and miss you more than anyone could imagine. My tears and memories are private for only you and I alone.

Goodbye to this life my darling sister, I'll see you at the pearly gates when I’m good enough to visit you but until then you're forever in my heart and thoughts.

Love you stacks Loopy Lou, your ever-loving Scraggy xxx

Loraine Finnigan (Sister) August 10, 2008

i wish u were here mam, i really need you!! x

Stacey (Daughter) July 26, 2008

still missing you

Hello darlin, its like being on a rollercoaster missing you, the knot in the pit of my stomach some days is just about bearable then i dont want to eat its so bad. Have taken to talking out loud to you, and it helps, just wish the answers i get werent from my head but your lovely face. I know you would be over the moon the way Daniel is going, i missed you so much at his 2nd birthday party, it was like a jigsaw with a really important part missing. Bye babe xxxx

Stephen Mason (Husband) July 15, 2008

Hi Carol

Hi Carol you are always in our thoughts. I'm looking after Dad like you told me to and he misses you also. I know you will be there to receive him when his time comes and that will be a comfort to him. Hope you're not playing the music too loud up there lol. Lots of love Ed and Dadxx

Ed (Brother) July 3, 2008

in my thoughts xxxxxxx

Crying to myself

Never asking for anything more
Not from the internet not from the store
Yet alone at night while i lay in bed
Thoughts of sadness play in my head.

Wanting for nothing expensive or bought
Peace and happiness is the only things sought
Tired of crying late through the night
Not wanting to argue not wanting to fight

Sitting at home for days without end
Wondering what happened to my child my best friend
Crying for hours as time passes by
Thinking to myself why do I cry?

Lost in a world full of worries and fears
Brings nothing but sadness depression and tears
Crying to myself seems to ease some of the pain
Yet, what does it do? What does it gain?

Please take away the worry, the pain and the grief
Give me a chance to get some needed relief
To sleep through the night without all this crying
The burdens to heavy, I feel like I'm dying.

Strength, love and courage try to keep me on track
THese I rely on to keep the weight off my back
Pretending and smiling is all that I can do
Crying to myself becuase of how I cant get over of losing you.....

Amanda June 23, 2008